The First of The Lasts

I am a Senior in college and will be graduating in the spring. It's crazy to think that I only have one more semester after this one. I honestly can't picture a time in my life when I won't be in school, the thought boggles my mind. A couple weeks ago I was dancing with a boy at country swing and he asked how long I have lived here. I then replied "Umm a little over 3 years." In which his response was "Oh! I didn't realize you were THAT old." His jaw was also on the floor. Haha I just had to laugh, because I don't feel that old. I guess I still picture myself as the young, awkward Freshman that I used to be. This past week was Homecoming Week. I always look forward to this week because of the fun activities. The ones I attended are listed below: 

Homecoming Week Festivities 

Monday: Paint Dance 

Tuesday: Free Aggie Ice Cream 

Wednesday: Mr. USU 

Friday: Rodeo and True Aggie Night 

Saturday: Homecoming Parade and Football Game  

         

                  After the Paint Dance

         Mr. Diversity was crowned Mr. USU 

He won the crowd over with his version of "Forget You"

        Utah State broke the Guinness Book of 

         World Records for longest Kissing Chain. 

    Sadly none of us participated... But we were there!

             Us cute girls at the Parade!

Minus the Aggies losing by 1 in double overtime; the whole week was quite perfect. I will definitely miss moments like these. I guess I will just have to live in Logan my whole life and participate as alumni :)

Just A Thought

In my "Children in Middle Childhood Years" class yesterday we were talking about cognition. We were discussing equilibrium and disequilibrium. Equilibrium is "A state of being able to address new events using existing schemes." Disequilibrium is the opposite of that, or in other words "A state of being unable to address new events with existing schemes." Children in this age range are really starting to develop new skills, and are starting to understand the world around them. Disequilibrium helps them do this. It pulls us out of our comfort zones and forces us to try new things. My professor said something that really hit me. She said, "You need to do something that scares you to death every single day." It got me thinking about myself. Sometimes I think I relish a little too much in my comfort zones. I tend to not like change, and fight it as much as possible. I have my normal routine that I enjoy. Mondays: FHE, Tuesdays: Taco Tuesday/Gym Wednesday: Pie Night/Country Swing Thursday: Night In/Homework and the weekends vary but usually consist of hanging out with the same people. I honestly can't say that I do something that scares me to death every single day. I don't want to look back on my life and have regrets. I want to live life to the fullest. There's a song on Lady Antebellum's new cd called "Friday Night." My favorite line in it says, "We can rock together let the good times roll forever. Fill up our cup make a memory drink it up. I don't wanna miss another minute." I don't want to miss another minute either. I can learn to step outside of my comfort zone, and embrace all that life has to offer; or I can stay in my comfort zone and always wonder what might have been. I choose to step outside of my comfort zone.

A Change of Heart

"One day at a time--this is enough. Do not look back and grieve over the past for it is gone; and do not be troubled about the future, for it has not yet come. Live in the present, and make it so beautiful it will be worth remembering." President Monson.      This quote is written on a tile I have in my room. I read it daily to be reminded of its truth. I just have to focus on making it through today... Anyone that has talked to me this past week knows that I have been struggling. There has been so much drama, and I'm ashamed to say that I haven't been handling it as well as I should have been. When a person that you cared a lot about betrays you, it's hard to just let go and move on. I want him to hurt as much as I've been hurting. I want him to see that he was in the wrong and apologize... But most of all I want him to care. I want him to care I'm not apart of his life anymore. I want him to care that his girlfriend makes my life Hell. I want him to care that I've been struggling. However, the fact of the matter is he doesn't! I suppose if he did, we wouldn't be in this situation to begin with. And as much as I want to beat them both, I have realized that I need to be the bigger person and keep my dignity. I can't control what they do, but I can control how I deal with them... And I'm sick of them making me miserable. I need to hold my head high and walk with the knowledge that I deserve better then what they are subjecting me to... Thankfully through it all my family and friends have been there for me. They are all so great and their support has meant more to me then I think they even realize. I truly am blessed!